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July 13, 2018  •  Leave a Comment

If you want to be strong, learn to enjoy being alone. 

 

I'm pretty introverted so enjoying being alone has not really been an issue but
learning how to be alone in public has been harder. 
I used to wait until I could find someone that wanted to do 
the thing or I just wouldn't do it. Having someone with me
gave me more confidence to get out there.

It took practice and feeling weird to get to the point that I enjoyed aloneness out in public.
The first me date I took myself on was the first year I was in college away from home.
On Valentine's Day of all days I took myself to get a haircut (normal solo activity).
Then the big step I went out to eat (on Valentine's) alone and to a movie.
I'm not going to say that I super loved seeing all the couples out on dates while I
soloed it up but I will say I realized I could.
I didn't need to wait for other people to do what I wanted. I could just do it.

From there I've maybe gotten too into enjoying things alone. Sometimes I do the reverse and 
save things for a time when no one else can go with me.
It still can be really lonely and not always exactly what I want.
Sometimes I have to talk myself into it and remember turning 
into a hermit is not a legitimate option.
It has made me realize that even the relationship with yourself takes work
and time.


This spring I went to Seattle. Not alone entirely. The BFF was there but very busy.
I had lots of day to fill, but man after teaching 3rd grade and have no 
personal space or time at work, it was kind of the greatest thing to realize I had a whole lot of it.
It was a bit overwhelming to even decide what to do with it.
I brought the trusty safety nets of books and my camera to hide behind.
It was not perfect and sometimes I just really wanted the BFF to be free but it was what I needed in many ways.

 



 


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